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我♥你
你♥我ma?

i rise from the ashes
only to find love.
this is the time i see the times
of our lives and lies.
all that i know
i watched u grow
from someone so cold
to an angel that glows.
what should i do
to convey to you
the love in my heart
i kept it so far.
words i cant say
actions i cant do
only hope for feelings to come for u.

I still missing you..

Im missing you but do u?

I feel like hugging u by myside do u feel like it too?

I feel like holding ur hands when ever we go out can u hold my hand 1st cos i dunno do u wan anot?

I really dun wan to let u go but y u leave me just like tt?

I'm i hurt now?

Yes its bleedin..

Did i feel better?

No not at all..

I feel life is like an empty shell without u by myside.
I can start everything all over again if u wan.
I can put all the past away will u wan?
I can only love u with all my heart if u are with me will u?
I wan to over come everything with u no matter up or down.


Let me noe after end of tis month i hope u dun regret wad u wan.

No life

Actually without my phone with me im alright de cos like tt i can do wad everthings i like no one can stop me nor say me. Ppl can only contact me only 2 no i think 1 is meli another is my house. If not online lor.


My wkin hr.

Today 27 Nov 3pm - 9pm After wk go home maybe
28 Nov 3pm - 10pm After wk go home if nt meli home
29 Nov 12pm - 10pm Maybe will be at meli house stay
30 Nov 12pm - 10pm Maybe will be at meli house stay

Tis is my timing for tis 4 days..


Will be payin my phone bill when i get my pay $485 omg im i crazy 3months phone bill..
Will be usin same no cos im goin to upgrade my line and change a phone le. You noe y im still usin my ah gong phone la!!

For my Cc $480 will be payin next month le if i 1 time pay all i dry till cant dry la!


Aiya find a sugar mummy la.. Hahahaha im just kiddin..

Abt wk, friends and me!!

Im nt feelin well tis few days... Sunday heart nt feelin well le aiya is love sick la.. Monday worst! Love sick and really sick le la high fever and im still outside walk also like drank person like tt..


Sunday im so gd boy stay at hm la cos my off day monday also my off day then.. Im hm!! Till late afternoon when out to meet friends. When out at 6plus reach hm at 11plus.. 11pm like tt friends say tk cab cos im hvin high fever thanks friends!! I just love u guys la.. Thanks for ur guan xing. :)



Ok tis few 2 days wkin quite ok leh kitchen staff is quite okie too. They all are joker la. Bt maybe some of them are quite unhappy i will nt name out who la. I noe can le keep silent is the BEST correct?? Hahaha


Today after wk front staff BB lent me psp memory card la game nt bad leh nw playin it.. Hahaha..
Will nd friend to help me transfer the game in.


Ok la i dunno wad to say le let's end here tonite...

Eh... wait wait still hv 2thing to say my lappy wireless ar SUCKS!!!

And some sickening spy i think...
Hai wo must put priv my blogs..

Hey i invite de only 3persons only cos i noe those 3 persons will see my daily life de..
Hahaha.... I shy le la..


Ok la im done with my blog nw..


Good nite my 3 readers..

My paper heart

Pls just dun play with me
My paper heart will bleed
Tis wait fir destiny won't do
Be with me pls i beseech u
Simple thing tt mak u run away
Catch u if i can

Tears fall down ur face
The taste is something new
Something tt i noe
Moving on is easiest when iam ard u

So bottle up old love
And throw it out to sea
Wash it away as u cry
A year has past
The seasons go

Pls just dun play with me
My paper heart will bleed
Tis wait fir destiny won't do
Be with me pls i beseech u
Simple things tt make u run away
Catch u if i can

Wating, day to day it goes through
My lips are sealed for her
My tingue is
Tied to a dream of being with u
To settle for less is nr wad i prefer

So bottle up old love
And throw it out to sea
Wash it away as u cry
A year has past
The seasons go

Pls just dun play with me
My paper heart will bleed
Tis wait for destiny won't do
Be with me pls i beseech u
Simple thing tt make u run away
Catch u if i can

Summer time, the nite are so long
The leaves fall down, and so do i to the arms of a friend
Winter nite
My bedside is cold, for iam gone
And spring blossoms u to me..

Wad i wan to say it out.

If u wan to noe hw much i miss u, try to catch rain drops, the ones u catch is hw much u miss me, and those u miss is hw much i miss u.

To the whole world u are somebody, bt to me u r the whole world

I love my eyes when u look into them, I love my name when u say it, I love my heart when u love it and i love my life when tt very day u say u wan to be with me.

The time i've met u i never though tis will come into love..

I might nt ne a perfect gf for u bt i can give the love more than a perfect gf can give.

I might let u down, let u cry, bt all of ur burden will fill with full of happiness as one with me.. I've ask myself many times and i've proven hw much i love u bt end up tis is wad i get.

To someone

STAY AWAY FROM U TT'S WAD I SAY.

U say u mark ur words ok i have nthing to say.

Just let it be.


I fuckin hate to be 3rd party everyone noe its.

Tis time i will nt say anything like the past anymore.

Last time i do say if u and her no longer tgt anymore then we have feelin we can be tgt.


NOW I WILL SAY AND PLS MARK MY WORDS!

Even u and her no longer tgt or wadever is non of my fucking business anymore!!

I'm back

Have been so so long nv updat le. sry readers. :)


Now my life i hv lots of thing in my mind.

Wk.
R/s.

Tis two is already makin me mad.


Wk.
I just started new job still hv lots of things still nd to lean.

R/s.
I have given up on u. I'm sorry i dun mean it bt cant help.
I just hate to be loner.
I seriously nd a gf who will care abt me.
So diff to find.. Anyone there?
To share my life till the very end?

Disapointed

I dun feel like posting anything out cos I'm feeling down and so disapointed when i noe the news..

Its so hurting....

Tired

Ok yesterday slp at 5plus wake up at 10plus tis morning wake up str away brush tooth le wear my pants then go out with meli to wet market buy food and cook...


Just finish my lunch.. So full!!! Its nice la..
Nw meli and her gf is playin psp la one of them de is mine de they challenge game la. I'm using my lappy nw blogging..


Back to square later is our mj again.. We miss one leg leh.. then we bo ban play three legs mj..
Hahahaha...

Will be going home after the last bus ba.

Dunno meetin them later anot. Must carry lappy, psp and my ipod aiyo ma fan leh..

Can u?

Hmmm..... Y are u sad? Can u tell me everything? I wan to share ur burden. Pls let me hold u tigh okie? Let's me be there for u can?

piss off with friendster

I FUCKING HATE friendster la almost all my friend in friendster friend list gone le!! Dunno wad happen.. FUCKING PISS OFF!!! Ppls pls add me back if u are in my friendster, friends list thanks.

Dunno wad title i wan to put..

Today 1st day step into my work place. Hmmm... the kitchen not bad the quite big. I'm a full timer there le. The food there is quite easy to do bt must be fast can i do it i dunno try out then i will noe le.


Monday start to go back wk place 4 superviser from japan come down to teach us. STRESS!!



I miss you.. Haizz...

I super fall in love with ur tis pic la.

My dear gal i super fall in love with ur tis pic la. Hope u dun mind i post tis out. I noe u dote me de and will nt angry de rite? Hugs..

2Days update.

On the 12Nov'08
Ehh... Forgotten le la.. I gt STM!! OMG!!

Okok i remember le i'm late cos actually meet 12pm play mj end up i 12.30pm then reach sorry guys. :x After play mj le then go bishan prawning till 11plus tk cab down to mama house rot till nw. I'm holdin a blow of rice n eat usin mama lappy n she is out for wk liao left me and papa at home. She is nw eatin rice too.. Wahahahahaha...


Dunno wad time leave mama house leh.. Meetin ah ma n jev they all at hougang at 9pm later ba.

Tml startin work soon!! OMG hv been 1month 2weeks nv wk le rotting la. lols.. I think i start to wk tml will be tired ba bt dun think i wan to rest.


On the 19Nov'08 will be the opening!!
Now im goin to learn new thing tt i always wan to learn de.
F&B Line im wkin.

Ok readers i write till here ba cos my rice like haven really touch yet and im hungry!!

Today

Slp at 7plus in the morning. I'm crazy cos i wan to give ppl morning call incase she wk up late then die le lo.

Later going to raffles place to sign some paper.

After tt maybe rot till wanlin knock off work then go and eat some light food. Cos she haven recover from caughing. Poor her still caughing. Hope u will recover soon okie? :)


Dunno she will go anot cos the next day she gt school and she is still sick now.

Scare

All the best in ur FTT.

Now is already 5.44am and im still haven slp.
I'm i crazy?
Will i hv chance?
My heart tell me dun think so.
Feel bad nw.
Cos i noe u are confuse.

I really hope everything is find.

Bless me pls.

11Nov'08!!

Yesterday thing i shall not post out.

Ok let's say abt tml is 11Nov'08.
Time pass fast we have noe each other for 2years plus le.
I miss 11Nov every year.
At clarke quay.
At Kinokoniya..
Walkin ard kinokoniya inside more then 30mins just to say the 6 letter words.
Damn shy la! Hahaha..
Come out from liang court..
Walk over the bridge..
Walk down the steps..
And tt is the 1st time we hold each other hand..
Did not let go keep on holding till reach home..
The feelin is still inside my mind..
And amelia took some of out back view pic.
Say blackmail us..
Funny la her...
I miss everyone with us in the group..
I miss the time beenin with u..
Most of all i miss you..

Dunno are u free tml?
I will be at Raffles will be going and look for u if u are workin..
Let have dinner after ur work.
After dinner send u back home.
If nt we can go chill out okie?

Smile

Yesterday super super super tired but i still go out with my dear wanlin and friends. :)

Ok i and wanlin when to suntec gai gai after tt go citi link to find her friends awhile then we when bugis gai gai again. Gai till half way wanlin nd to help her friend to buy dinner so we gai finish le then go back citi link.


Wanlin still nv change buy must buy a set de. U noe i noe la. Lols..

Buy nike short from suntect.
Then go bugis walk till feet pain buy shoes.
She ar still wan me to help her wear her shoes, lucky we at V8 Cafe there the stair lor only there nt so many ppls ma but have ppl walk pass la see i wear shoes for her la wah kao.. -_-"
After change shoes le she feel better le she ar always wan pretty dun wan life de wear till pain still wear. Bo ban la women ma wan pretty. Wahahahahaha..
From bugis walk back citi link pass her friend food not long i left le cos meeting friends at tpy do things. :)


Nite time we actually wanted to go butter factory de bt my friends cant go in cos 21 and above then can. so we change place lor Dbl O bt 1 friend cant get in so we change place again to clarke quay dunno which club then worst butch cant go in! WTH la last place Arena YES finally can le. My friend see my walk pass call me to go in Arena de bt i told her bt my other friend friend is at the other club leh she say if bored come join us la i say ok so she give me her no say if come arena come find her i say ok. :) Really go back find her join her table and drink. Arena not bad la bt sometimes abit bored only cos of thoes sickening guys there.

After clubbin. Dun really feel good..

Ah ma is drank le. Lols ah ma drank.. Lols
Clare nd to tk jev thing from her own house but her house key at nessa house.
And then ah ma confirm nd to go back nessa house 1st de.
So i call Clare, nessa,jev and ah ma go tk cab home i tk bus down nessa house. But end up i did not tk down to nessa house.
I wan to be alone.
Sorry guys to make u all so worry.
Morning dunno wad time reach home. Fall aslp... Head damn hurt nw. Bt im going out later again. House so noisy..

Papa

Papa Happy Belated 18th Birthday to you.. Yesterday the kiss i give u u like it? Wahahahahahha

Super Tired!

OMG is so tired la make over mama room hope u like my style la i have make over ur room, clean her floor omg is like bull man no nd to slp. 9am or 9plus then slp. tired tired tired!!! After clean up moving everything see le also feel better. Nw mama slp like pig la. I'm leaving house le going to meet wanlin. She sure late de lor say meet me 12pm at bugis still say i sure can wake up ma lor end up she just left house. Lol la. Oops... :x After meet her pei her go gai gai le then at nite going other place le. Sorry gal if still earli i send u back home ba if nt u go home urself okie? I noe u will be understanding de rite? Hahahaha....


Butter Factory nt goin le change of plan still nt yet plan..
Waiting fir u guys to let me noe. :)


Ok im going out now le if nt i will kana scold by her late le.
Good bye readers.

I really did not...

I really nv treat u as a tool i swear! Really wan to settle down i hate to change gf like change shirt.

Miss does'nt means i want her back is only a miss u can miss anyone bt i love u is diff.

I chen ren i miss her bt i can tell u i love u.

I do told some of my friends b4 if 11Nov2011 u haven att i will wow u back bt now u are single and bi also y nt i wow u back. 11Nov2008 is coming and is on tuesday i dare not to ask u cos u are confuse.. If u are ready pls let me noe im still here for u.

Its nd sometimes to forget a person de. So im tryin to recover soon. im nt like the pass will treat her tt good anymore friends do see i not like last time le.

I dun wan to be a player if i really like tt person.
Im a busted last time bt i have change.

Ouch

Wake up at 6plus go toilet after tt suddenly wanted to go into my blog and update my feelin..

Think after clare bday tpy im going to say goodbye to u. Will not step into there anymore lots of hui yi there. I noe u hv move on so ya..... I'm nt going to say more cos it hurt me more when ever i think of it i noe it will bt a very hard time for me. Have been draggin and draggin wanted to msg bt friends beside me have say dun text u dun text u.. Actually im nt really use to it cos almost everyday we text we talk on the phone we meet. Y i'm tearsin at tis hr6.35am...

I hate wearin a mask out to cover my feelin..
Yuki is a guy. Di Yi Chi tt song is for you..

I really miss you now and then bt everything is really over..
I hate to say tt bt i hv no choice.

I hate to tears i hate miss you i hate to think of the past although im happy in the past bt nt now.
I HATE MYSELF!
Tears till my head hurt tears till my eyes pain..

Yeah she date me out!

My dear wanlin date me out on sat!!! Wahahahaha.. I shy leh.

Ok let me think where she wanna to go gai gai im going to tk all her girly bag and her things she buy again. But its ok la.. Miss Tay u must be honoured ok? Take ur girly bad. Tt day u better hold my litter fat hand ar im ur gf leh.. Wahahahah... Kidding la.

I'm moving on le cos u dun noe how to treasure me then i better treasure other ppl who is worth my love. Hope u will be alrite.


Humen izzit like tt wan?

love u
but u love other tt dun treasure u. Sucks rite?
Miss u
but u miss other tt is missin other. Sucks too.

Is tis call love?
OMG SUCKS LA.

sUCKS

I just hate the feeling.. I hate you bt i just cant bear.........


Wad the FUCK!!!

Rabbit!!!

Tell meli im bored and i want to find ppl to talk but dunno find who meli call someone to talk to me.

I really hv no ideal she call who n talk to me.
When meli pass the phone to me le then i still dunno who the hell is tt person. When i ans i ask who is she she scold me la (Kns, kp tis and tt) I'm like thinkin how come meli ask tis type of ppl to talk to me de so rude. U noe end up tt person is rabbit!! Wahahahahaha

Ok we hv talk quite alot of lame things say abt past and all. Hahahaha...
Lame la us.

And i see my thumb drive inside hv almost 127 pic of me and her still hv lots more bt my N80 gone case le so did nt store in my thumd drive. Haizz..

Look at the past pic quite funny. The way we act ugly inside also have!! Wahahahaaha
Ok talk on the phone for an hr plus hang le cos tt sinky rabbit wan to go n have a bath le. After come out the chat again but by the time i dunno i still awake anot leh. Haha..

Hmm... Later morning meli gf will be coming down to amk i think me and meli go meet her then go buy some food back home to cook again. Yeah gt nice homemade self cook food le.


Maybe will hv some mj session again leh. Hahahaha...

Feel like postin out some of my ex pic some happy times.

Wanlin & Me! :)

Rabbit & Me! :)

aL & Me. :]

FUCK

I FUCKIN PISSED BY SOMEONE JUST NOW!!

PISS MY NITE.


Its ok anyway tml think im meetin someone have nt seen her quite long le.


My dear wanlin call me to hv lunch with her on friday or sunday. Hahahaha are u dating me for lunch? :X


I miss .......



Nt going home today. tml dunno going home anot leh...
t

Wad happen yesterday and later. :)

Yesterday when to see dental cos of my tooth giving me problem.
I waited for 2hr plus then my turn to get my ass into the dental room. Actually my doctor done bo two tooth le but the top back tooth still v hurting.

He say ur tooth hole nt deep at all how come pain i say i dunno.
You noe wad he say he say if tml still pain u come back i see how.
I say Huh dun wan la now its already v v pain le still wan i wait tilll tml then go back and then dunno tml i go back then they wan me to tk appointment again ma its already v pain le.
Then he say how u wan i pull out or wad.
I str away say pull out for me. He say ok.
1st he give me two injection on mouth inside funny thing is when he done le i ask him u inject ar he say ya. Its nt really pain la but i can feel he push things inside. After tt i saw his hand taking things to pull out my top back tooth so scary he use strange to pull out de the feelin was so ER XIN CAN!!!!

Ok pull out le wah the blood like no nd money keep on coming out so much la. So er xin also.. Im going for interview later la how sia. Half of my face numb le. numb till late afternoon then abit ok.
I'm bring plaste bag ard throwin out all the blood so scary la when im like in train or outside tkin my plaste bag out and throw out alot of blood. Ppls was lookin man.. OMG i think they tot i why suddenly throw out so much blood la.. Hahaha


After interview le yeah!!! I got the job i wan le. Now im going to learn new things in my life. And tt is wad i always wanna to learn. COOK!! Will be starting trainning on 13Nov'08 outlet at near my old work place liang court. (Saizeriya Ristorante E Caffe) Manager say if i work as a cook then if wan to change to other positon also can de. Hmmmm.. I say ok. Cos cook i nv do b4 ma he say maybe can put me do under some paper work also. Tt's so kind of him. Lols..

After interview i meli and meifang meli gf we go bishan prawning!!
3Hr of prawning is fun la. Have nt been prawning for so log le.
After blogging im going out le will update u guys again.
I will be at amk if u guys wan to find me come amk ba. Hahaha...

To someone

Sorry to catch ur hand so tightly just nw cos i hv no choice.




Rest earli.

Day for today..

Today sucks la. wad ever la wad u think and wad u say.
I call clare to sit there cos i sit there u dun even wan to talk la and clare sit there at least u gt talk then y not i call her to sit there.
Clare i told u y i call u sit there le hor dun anyhow think ar.

I really dun feel like smiling bt friends did not piss me so i should nt let them see black face of mine.

Thanks friends. No matter wad i will not mix other things tgt with friend de.

Thanks for the song i like to listen when u play songs tt i like with ur piano, but everything is over..



Tooth hurt again... Haiz..

Haizz

Dun feel like posting tis two days thing out..


Cos MY TOOTH HURT!!!!

Boring day..

Today not a good weather actually wanted to go sentosa end up rain very heavily so we cant go le. Lucky we did not go sentosa last nite if not tis morning all become wet chickens hahahahaha..

Dunno wad is later plan le.
Now rotting at home online blogging and chatting on the phone.

Maybe will be going aL house tonite with friends. Not so sure yet.


Will update soon..

Good bye..

my days..

31Oct'08

Ah ma jio go zouk and Dbl O but i nv go.

Me, aL and nessa accompany jass go bugis buy things then i soon ban go touch up this time the tattoo guy use damn lots of li to touch up my tattoo la. But ok la i also fall aslp but he keep pressin my back so hard till i cant really slp.

After touch up le then wanted to go other place to buy thing de end up A Big Gal contact us and say bugis also gt sell ma buy from there the same then jass say ok lor. We walk back bugis st and wait for abby and her gf. Then after tt abby mia dunno go where. Jass buy her thing de then we go eat wan tan mee eat finish le abby and her gf com chat awhile le then go play game after tt smokin time then home sweet home.

Reach home relax awhile then go out again cos my tanning map at peisin house saw her downstair with friend, so i when to her house and tk le then go down chat awhile then nt long go home le.

At home online and talk on the phonewith aL.